One year ago today we had just arrived in Uganda on time for our July 1st court date (after the most Hellish travel experience of a lifetime) only to be told court had been moved to the following week! And so our time in Uganda continued to go quickly on a downward spiral with the way things were “supposed” to go not going at all. And now today Joyce has been home 4 months!
This weekend Dane took me on a weekend getaway to the mountains. It was the first time away from Rwenzori and Joyce. As we were sitting on our private porch at the Bed and Breakfast I asked Dane if he realized that a year ago that day we were in Frankfurt Germany on our way to Joyce and the following day in Egypt during the Revolution. And the night we were in Frankfurt instead of seizing the once in a lifetime opportunity and going downtown to enjoy the festival that was going on, we instead spent the entire night at the airport frantically searching for our lost luggage, that we still did not find. I so wish at the time we had been thinking of the verse in Matthew 6, “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life ?” That is what you call Hindsight. And also sin. Sin because we were letting our circumstances and situation dictate our joy and peace of mind when we know it’s all in God’s hand anyways.
All I can say a year later and what God continually keeps teaching me is that I am not in control and the sooner I let go of what “control” I think I have the freer I become. And that as cliché as people may think it sounds, God’s timing is perfect. God certainly was not surprised that the U.S. Embassy would not give Joyce her visa right away. Maybe He knew that I would have had a mental breakdown with a colicky newborn, needy toddler, and moody pre-teen all at once.
And what God is teaching me now that all my beautiful daughters are home is that I cannot be a good person, wife, or mother without Him. On my own I mess it up Every time.
So, what does life look like now in the Love household? Well the dining room is filled from top to bottom with furniture and packing boxes, bare closets, and empty walls. That’s right, we are moving. Still waiting on our closing date, but we will be moving to Hemby Bridge. The packing boxes have been handy when trying to curral Zori since she is into everything and crawling everywhere. I cannot tell you how much I crave some normalcy and consistency to life right now! I’m over life in Limbo for the time being so the sooner we move, the better. Joyce is a little sad about the move but I know when she realizes how much closer we are to everything and her friends she will be okay. She is already ready for school to start back. She will be starting a Soccer camp that is on Saturday’s soon. I think soccer will be perfect for her because it’s high energy and she has plenty of that!
Dane keeps asking me if I am going to continue to blog since everyone is now home. I just feel like I’m not done with the whole blogging thing yet, although it will be less and less frequent. So, until next time…